FIRST DAY

mmm, today went alright.
here's my schedule:
1st; ENGLISH 11 AP; myers
2nd; CHEMISTRY; urabe
3rd; TREBLE CLEF; a. rodriguez
4th; TRIG/PRE-CAL; ameluxen
5th; SPANISH 3 H; esquer
6th; US HISTORY; hancock

everything's just whatever. the only thing i really hate is that i have to start off my day in AP ! ]: i'm notorious for coming to school late, and i especially don't want to be late to an AP class. i don't need any detentions in my life. other than that, things are chill ish. chemistry is just a little intimidating basically because i suck at science. choir's always chill [: i'm frustrated that i got the same math teacher as last year, but someone in the class makes it a little worth it. my spanish teacher scares me a little, too ! ugh. oh, & sixth period is just fun. seems like i'm gonna' have a lot of fun there :D anyways, i got "homework" to do & i'm gonna' coach my brother's team around 5 because my dad sprained his ankle, & then i have my own practice around 8. sooo busy !

goodbye, lovessss.
here's to better days !

<3

PEACEOUT

summmma. so fun while it lasted ...
still got stuff to finish up, so i better get to it !

real quick though;
holycrap. last night was probably one of, if not the best, night of my summer. the cutest ish went down ! i'm just so frustrated by who it came from. very unexpected, & confusing. mmm, gotta move on though.

anyways, updates will come when school starts.
g'bye ! [:

OH BOY

choir camp is over ! D:
it was honestly really fun. i loved meeting new people & getting a little closer to people i've already known but might have just lost contact with for a while. mhmm, it's always nice to get reunited & stufffff. i really like the songs we've already learned & i can't wait to learn even more. i know women's is gonna' require a lot of hard work compared to mixed choir, but shooot. i'm so down to make all the effort needed & them some [; hahah. just a little side note: nahh, i'm not giving anyone "the hookup". so ya'll need to just chill ! if yah' know i mean, although most of you won't. oh welll.

officially just a little over a week left of summma vacation. that's ridiculous ! i'm not ready to go back to school yet. just looking through some of my books that i already have scares me already. junior year's gonna' be hell. whatever though, so many people have gone through it so why can't i ? forrrreal. all i know is that i gotta' focus like no other for the remainder of this summa. it's seriously do or die at this point. ahh !

i'm out ! i'll try to keep yah' posted <3

feeeeling ? ... determined, happpay, stressed.

GREAAAT

this is just wonderful. this keeps happening again & again & again ...

hoping this will be the last time, but then again - that's what i hoped for before & things still went down the same way. how frustrating. i can help but wonder if it's time to quit. who knows ?

here's to a fantastic weekend ahead of me.

feeeeling ? ... disheartened, but still optimistic.

REALLY

what are you trying to do to me ?
you do "the usual". whatever works for you. that thing i can't stand.
whatever you wanna' call it. i'll still call it BS.
you do what you're best at as if i don't already have enough problems on my mind all the time. you try to act like you understand & you attempt to give what you call advice. it doesn't help because i know it's not real. you seem to think this is a game - guess what ?! ... i'm not playing. i'm not much of a quitter, but you've left me no choice. i'm done with games, with drama, with the pain, with YOU. i've tried to find a positive side to the things you've done & how's it has affected my life, but there's nothing that really gives me that willingness to make it work. not anymore, at least.
who do you think you are ?
you don't have the right to do this to me ... to anyone. i hope you never ever put anyone through what i went through. i know i'm not perfect & i'm not always the best person towards people ... but hey ! at least i admit it. you can't go around telling people what to do or how they could improve this or that when your own life is freakin' ridiculous. i don't know what to do with you anymore. just please stop trying ... i'm pretty much begging now. it only hurts me more. do both you & i a huge favor. just let go ...

i definitely have.

this is directed to one person, & one person alone. i apologize for wasting everyone else's time. i'm sorry for going off like this, but i honestly can't take it anymore. i need to let these things out.
i'll keep these blogs going. hopefully the next ones will be happier :] goodnight.

feeeeling ? ... frustrated, sad ish, sick ish, whatevvvs mannn

HOME

sweeeet home.
washington was greaaat; enjoy:

many more pictures on my myspace. check 'em out if you'd like :]
btw; i'm still procrastinating. i only have like 3 weeks left ! ahh ...

feeeeling ? ... bored, stressed out, blah.

WDUPPP

from port orchard, washington ! :]
this vacation has been extremely fun, & the best part is that it's not even done yet ! i'll give full details when i get back to california & i'll even post some pictures. for now, all i can really say is that i'm loving washington & it's so nice to get away from the hills for a little while.

yeah, i'm leaving soon to go camping for 2 nights. i'm really excited ! :D at this point, i don't think i'm gonna' get to make s'mores because nobody wants to go to the store to buy the chocolate & marshmallows & crap. mhm well, i'm out ! byeee <3

feeeeling ... super excited, happppay.